work hard.play hard.

Some of the most important things you learn in life you can never learn in a classroom.
This really reminds me of what's important in life.
And I'm... so grateful that my parents were able to realize what's truly important in life, because the only person who ever really saw myself as a failure was myself. They just want me to be happy, and they are intelligent enough to realize that I am basically the only person who will be able to determine what will or not make my life successful or happy. Not grades, not what college you go to, not how much money you have or make, and most certainly not what other people's 'standards' of successful and honor is. This is my life.
"I want the best of life and love and hope and all that I can choke, I want to taste it, because I can't become a waste of everyone I know." - doc sommers band/brevada

it's all about balance.
and balance is very important to me.

1. I'm tired of shitting on people behind their backs. Honestly... I'm really tired of it. It's childish, it's stupid. It's immature. Judging.. someone simply by this one incident.. by this one occurrence.... isn't that is why I always been so scared of other people judging me? This is the exactly the reason that I'm always scared of what other people think. And the fact that I been doing the very same thing myself is weak, and I got exactly what I deserved. How pretty or ugly someone is... it doesn't matter. And I don't think it's start to really hit me how much it doesn't matter until now. I'm living my own life. Herwooooo. So are you.
2. Andrea told me before that I always accepted people for who ever they were. I feel like I really haven't been doing that at all lately, for a very long time. at all.
3. I want to become a better cook. I want to become a really good cook and baker. Food is important to me (not just because I love to eat...well... maybe). But for some reason it is important to me... and I don't really have too much of problem spending my money on food. I like to buy a lot of food in hopes of sharing with others. I want to become a good cook so that I can share this food with others, so they can enjoy this food too... and so we can enjoy this food together. I mean I suck at cooking now, but it's a trial&error... a learning experience. It is important to me.
4. I will work harder. In everything; in work, in school, in my relationships, in who I am and who I want to become, in myself, in getting over my fear, in life. I can't give up. I refuse to give up. I don't want to limit myself like I have always have before. I don't want to close my mind off because someone tells me something is wrong or whatever. And I most of all don't want to close myself off because someone else says I can't. I don't want to stop just because I'm telling myself I can't.
I don't want to way things like 'impossible.'

I been given so much. I just want to truly give back.

I just want to live my life without boundaries or restrictions that I myself set up in my own mind.
I will not waste.
I'm not good at much...
but I'm not giving up.
I will throw in my best in everything in life. I must promise myself that. and I must never forget.

I like people who try their best. So I want to like myself too.