only time will tell.

i think... i realized, all my life all i have really done is live by the rules.
the idea of being in a position of power scares me because i'm scared of mistakes, of being a failure and disappointing.
i'm scared of trying new things; constantly scared of making choices because choices could mean another mistake.

why so much fear.

all i have been training myself to do is just to 'pass the exam.'
then what? what about after that?

Jennifer. You. ARE. going to die.
nothing matters. most of it doesn't anyways.

"The only thing I've learned from my Ivy League education is how many things in my life are more important." (a postsecret).

the more i learn, the more i realize how much really is just really... does. not. matter.
live with less security. maybe i'll appreciate more of what i have then.

Fuck you's:
1. This is my body. Why should I be ashamed of any part of it.
2. Why should I be ashamed of anything that I do. The only thing I should be ashamed of is that how I been too weak to even try... to stand up for what I want or believe in.
3. I hate your judgement. I hate your gossip. I hate... constant worry over nothing. This is almost everything I am.

live with less restrictions.. less fear...
there are no rules.

lets go.

you are, the only exception

Dismantle, Repair.
I want to better myself. Physically, mentally, emotionally.

Go, go go goooooooooooooooooooo.