jumble of thoughts.

i want to live a life of love.
-love of the life i'm leading.
-love what i'm doing
-love who i am and the choices i'm making
-no restrictions
-no holding back
-to do what i love and want
-no.restrictions
-no holding back
-to wear what i want.


Full Metal Alchemist is basically my favorite anime of all time (the first anime, the one that differs from the manga).
because
1. Family. Family is so important. These two brothers live for only each other.
Family family family is so precious. I want two kids at least, so that they hopefully know what it means to have a sibling. .. so hopefully that they will understand the importance of family. And how strong family love is.
2. It's sooooooooooooooooo good. Lkfjaldkfj af it's amazing. I love it.


I'm so insecure.
I always criticizing and judging others.
Don't lie, because I know you're doing it too. We all do.
I don't want to be this way anymore. I don't want be insecure anymore. I don't want to be constantly judging others , and more importantly I don't want to be judging myself.
"Do what you love, and fuck the rest".
-Little Miss Sunshine
Who cares who cares. It doesn't matter. Wear what you love. Do what you love. Live the life you love, and fuck the rest. This who I am, and I will go after what I want. We're all trying to live the life that we can all love. So who I am to try and judge someone else is doing the very same thing I'm doing: struggling.
Be true Jennifer be trueeeeee. lulz.

I will always believe that working hard will give you an equivalent exchange. I do believe that what you put in will be what you get in the end. If you put in a half-ass job, you will get only half-ass back. Go ahead and cheat, but it will come back to haunt you. You at least lost my respect. This... this working hard, struggling gives me back so much that I can't even begin to explain.
I wrote this a while ago (at least 2 years ago, my senior year of high school):
"want to know a quick way to lose my respect?
cheat. just go ahead and do it.
cheating is a coward's way out and it's p a t h e t i c. so very pitiful.
sure, maybe you're getting the better grade but i'm learning things so much more valuable than you are.
so go ahead and take the cheap way out, you'll pay the consequences later in life when you don't know how to deal with failure and i will not feel sorry for you.
maybe cheating is wrong but more than that it's one very poor choice that i believe shows how just hollow you are.
no excuses.


i have no regrets what so ever.
none at all."

call me a child for believing that i will get something back for my hard work.
i rather be called a child forever then. Besides.. isn't there something precious about always being a child. I will always hold on to that belief, and that hope. and love.
(another reason why I love Full Metal Alchemist so much. You'll know what I'm talking about if you seen it).
I'm growing. I know I am.